Yesterday I was finally reunited with Hey Monday after a couple months. I got meet and greet and got my ticket signed and I gave Cassadee an early birthday gift. I got her Betsey Johnson earrings (which she wore on stage) and a couple other things and I wrote her a pretty long letter about how much I appreciate her and everything’s she’s done for me. Something that no one knows with the exception of like three of my closest friends is that I burn myself. For some reason I don’t know how it even started or why, but sophomore year instead of cutting myself I found that burning myself would calm me down when I’m upset. It’s something about the heat, I don’t really know how to explain it. I’ve been doing it since sophomore year and I’m now entering college. I myself don’t even understand why I do it, I don’t know why things trigger me so easily, but they do. I have the perfect life at home (as much as I complain about my parents) I wouldn’t trade them for the world, they give me everything I need/want and more. I have the greatest friends, I have everything. People have worse problems. Which is the exact reason I don’t tell people I burn. I don’t want people to feel bad for me. There’s absolutely nothing to feel bad for. I’m completely FINE. I don’t even see this me doing this as a problem. I’m really good with control and I know that’s all it is, is in my head. Anyways, forget about the burning This is all over the place. So I didn’t mention this is the letter to Cassadee because I didn’t want her to feel bad for me, or look at me differently, or judge me. If most people found out someone was self harming they would most likely think they have a bad home life or something along the lines of that. Whatever. In the letter I did let her know that when I get upset I let everything build up and I don’t like to talk to anyone about it because I feel like a burden and I don’t like getting that close to people, and that when things get hard I listen to Hey Monday. The one time I can get away from everything is at concerts. Last night is just another reason I’m so fucking thankful for Hey Monday and Cassadee. I’ve learned so much from having Cass being my role model. She’s so down to earth, and she’s always positive no matter the situation. I’ve been trying to be just as positive as her. Last night Cassadee made me feel like I was important. After the show she told me she read my letter and she loved it. She said those are they kind of things that really make what she does worth it. She told me about how stuff bothers her too. We stood outside talking for a while about my letter an other stuff. I just can’t explain the feeling of getting the chance to stand there talking to your role model like it’s a normal conversation with a friend. If you don’t like Cassadee, you’re totally entitled to your own opinion and that’s fine. But reading all this hate on her really really fucking bothers me. A lot. If you don’t like the music that’s completely fine. I understand. But when people say Cassadee’s a bitch or other negative things about her and haven’t met her, it’s just ridiculous because that’s the absolute furthest thing from the truth. Not only Cassadee but the band as a whole treat their fans so damn good, they come out after the shows to sign and they remember familiar faces, they actually give a fuck. If you want to vocalize your hate for them whatever, do whatever you need to do. But if your posting it on Tumblr why put the tag “Hey Monday” or “Cassadee” on it. If your on Twitter, why @ reply them. Where is that getting you. They’re REAL people, they read that shit. It’s disrespectful. I’m really all over the place with this because I have so much to say. No offense to any of my friends reading this, but Cassadee is the one person in my life who has never let me down and has always been there for me. When I had surgery she direct messaged me on Twitter, when I had boy problems I got a hug from her at Dirty Work, there’s just been so many times and things that I won’t even get into right now for certain reasons. But the point is if it wasn’t for Cassadee Pope I would have a lot more scars on my wrists, arms, wherever else than I do now. Last night she threw a guitar pick right to me, at the end of the set she got a setlist and handed it right to me. She makes a point to let her fans know she appreciates them just as much as we appreciate her. Back in 2008 all I dreamt of was a friend ship with Cassadee, since we have so much in common. At this point I feel like in a way we are friends. Having a conversation with her after a show is completely normal to me. I don’t get nervous I feel like I’m just seeing an old friend. The fact that someone in a band can make me feel that important is so amazing to me. When they were done signing outside last night and were heading back to the hotel Cass tapped me on the shoulder and told me she was leaving and wanted to say bye and gave me a hug. How many people in a band would do that? Is that what a “bitch” would do? No. Cassadee is the nicest person I’ve ever met. I hope at least ONE person who dislikes Cass read this all the way through and maybe changed their mind about her, or even will give her a chance now. If you get a chance go out to a Hey Monday show. They never ever disappoint. They all have amazing stage presence and put on a great show. Go out and talk to Cassadee and the boys, nicest people in the entire world. You won’t regret it.
(Source: awholetownunderwater)
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